Posts from 6 years ago
Finding the right balance of confidence is difficult. Obviously there are positives and negatives to being either over or under confident. The trick to find the lesser evil. In my case, I have done it both ways. And the over is the better choice.
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I know it sounds odd, but crappy poetry is important. That is, assuming you believe good poetry is important. Anything good is good because of comparison. Good poetry becomes more rare by the creation of bad poetry. Let’s say that there are a thousand poems, and only one is good. Now let’s say I write 200 crappy poems. Now there are 1200 poems, and only 1 is good. A good poem used to be 1 in 1000, now it is 1 in 1200. This seems obvious, however many people are unable to see it. After realizing this there are two other things that become obvious.
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I know it seems obvious, but things don’t matter so much. The amount of time and thought put into thinking about things is generally wasted, and I am probably more guilty of this than anyone I know. But the summation of everything does matter. It’s a lot like voting. Chances are your vote isn’t going to be the deciding one (and if it was, I’m sure there would be a recount). But if no one voted, we would be in trouble. So voting doesn’t matter by itself, but in context with everyone else’s vote, it makes a difference. In school, if I fail 1 test, it’s not so bad. If I failed every test for a semester, that is pretty bad. You have to simultaneously not shrug the small stuff while still being aware of the end effect. Aside from all of this, there is always the fact that you can try again next week, or next semester, or 10 years later. While I believe we should see the big picture and not worry about little things, I think the things that you should cherish are the small things. Say I had a 3 hour conversation with someone special and neglected to study. I fail the test. Not too bad. Overall I’m fine. But as long as it’s not a habit, I am actually coming out ahead. Small 3 hour conversations are fun. They make you more positive, or can give you more confidence, or just make you happy in general. This feeling is probably stronger than the feeling of academic success. It is for me. It didn’t used to be, but I have come to realize one of the most important things in life. You can’t take a degree with you to heaven. You can’t take cars or money or any worldly success. You can take relationships, though. And you can take those good deeds you did with someone else and build up heavenly treasures. It’s fun to build up someone else. I’m really starting to get a hang of this whole “existence” thing. And I’m liking it more and more.
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Here’s to getting on a regular routine. Here’s to doing something weekly (daily???) Here’s to doing this thing right, so that it’s potential is realized.
JMO
Thing sure have gotten busy. It feels like I have been at school for months now, but it’s only been two weeks. It’s gonna be a long semester. Lucky for me, I am going to a wedding this Friday, so I get a small but needed break. Here’s to airplanes and Ipods.
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I filmed stuff today, and I am excited. Even though most of it sucked, and maybe I’ll squeeze two minutes out of twenty, I’m still excited. I’m doing all that I can to get off the brain crack. Today’s word of encouragement is share. Share people.
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I have a couple of life long goals I wanted to get down. First is to receive an honorary doctorate. Why would I want to put in all that wasted time when I can just be a badass and someone will give it to me? Second is to receive the MacArther grant. I know it’s a longshot, but they have to give it to someone. And maybe some day I will have amassed enough skills to be considered an innovator. If changing the world’s aspect on something is the goal, I want to be a part of it. And I think I will.
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Another busy week. Maybe these will slow down eventually. Looks like I’m not gonna get anything done that I wanted to get done. Oh well, I guess that’s life. One badass thing I did pick up today. My Top 5 Strengths in order of importance:
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Alright, well I’m back up in CS, and the “stage is set”. I’m overloaded with CP stuff for this first week (month, year…) But I will get around to the first video. I’m excited. JMO
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First, let me say this: Brad Lidge has been a sinking ship ever since that fateful 9th inning in game 5 of last years NLCS. Given that, I must place a good majority of the blame for the Astro’s sinking on Phil Garner. Let’s take this afternoon as an example. Bottom of the 6th, 2 outs, man on 1st and 3rd, and we are down by 1. Andy Pettitte is about to step up to the plate. He should be about to sit back down on the bench. PINCH HIT! Not only do you have Morgan Ensberg, Jason Lane, and Adam Everett batting 5-6-7, but you have Ausmus and Pettitte filling out the line-up. You should be so lucky that 2 of those guys even got on base. But instead, you batted Pettitte, who struck out swinging. While Andy did deliver a full game (a loss), you had some arms left. Bad Garner! Very bad Garner! And don’t getting me started on letting Preston Wilson go, while moving Jason Lane back into the line-up. Although I will thank Phil for one thing. I am no longer worrying if the Astro’s are gonna “make it” this year. You might as well let Lidge pitch every 9th from here on out, just to get the work in.
Finish reading More Phil's fault than Lidge